Proud?

After learning about my trip to Uganda, some are saying that they are proud of me.  When people respond in this way it causes me to feel confused, and honestly, a bit frustrated.  I guess I don’t really understand what I have done that someone could be proud of.

Perhaps, I went outside my comfort zone.  Outside of the Johnson County, Kansas bubble.

But since when are we challenged within our own comfort zones?

When are we met where we want to be met, when we are ready, when it is convinient for us?

What good would occur if we stayed in our comfort zones and only welcomed challenge within our own parameters?

I suppose that I believe we aren’t supposed to live comfortable lives in which we just go through the motions.  It should be considered normalcy to be daily challenged and daily responsive, not an extraordinary event.  Not something to be proud of.

Or, maybe people think that they should be proud of what I am doing, writing, thinking, after the trip.  Those things are also not to be proud of.  Words and thoughts easily become hypocritical when they are not turned into action.  I am still struggling to respond.  And yeah, sure, in order to figure out how to respond, asking questions is helpful.

But again, aren’t we always supposed to be questioning?

And aren’t we all supposed to be questioning?

Responding?

I am so thankful for the experience that I was able to be a part of.  And for the new ways in which I was challenged and pushed to respond.  But this is not something to be proud of because it should be a part of everyone’s daily life.

Traveling to another country-is not going to produce change, is not something to be proud of and is not love.

Not being aware of problems within ourselves and in our own backyards-is not going to produce change, is not something to be proud of and is not love.  

Not reflecting our words, thoughts, beliefs, in our actions-is not going to produce change, is not something to be proud of and is not love.

Thinking we know everything and are no longer suppose to ask questions, seek answers, and actively respond-is not going to produce change, is not something to be proud of and is not love.   

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